Saturday, June 11, 2011

Getting better..

Life is going pretty good right now. My 16 month anniversary with my boyfriend was a few weeks ago. It's crazy thinking that we've been together for almost a year and a half. That kind of scares me. Like I'm young, so sometimes I wonder if I should even be in a committed relationship. But for the most part I'm really happy.

One of my best friends finally came back to school. It's been about 2 or 3 months since she last went. She had run away and was getting into some pretty sketchy things, but she's home now, and I think she's getting happier. Except for when she's dealing with her mom. And I know everyone complains about how terrible their parents are, but I'm not even kidding... her mom is fucking psycho. She has spent almost all of the family's savings and all of her husband's retirement money because... wait for it... she thinks Armageddon is coming. Yeah.. Sketchy. Oh, and she told my friend that when the time comes, she will KILL her, and eat her. What a great mom. Total sarcasm.

It made my day to hear about her mom's creative theories though. And what makes it even better, and i know this may be a little racist or stereotypical... but her mom is Korean. So the crazy Korean lady thinks Armageddon is coming. Perfect. I can't wait. (;

Friday, May 20, 2011

Boys Boys Boys.

 Boys suck. They are what cause the majority of stress and drama in a teenage girl's life. I'm not even kidding. my entire year has been drama filled because of stupid boys. Like god damn. I'm just feeling boy crazy and not in the good way.

 It's hard to know when someone is telling the truth when all you hear is negative things from everyone else. And i feel like everyone else is bias when it comes to this topic so i don't really gain any advice from it, i just get more and more confused. It's stupid. I'm losing someone i care about. And there's nothing i can really do. Sometimes it's just better to let them go. Even if it's the hardest option on you.

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Another one:

  Two posts in one night, crazy.
I don't really have much to say tonight actually. I'm just kind of laying here in bed thinking about what to do next in my life. Sometimes I think that my mind doesn't belong to that of a 16 year old. I think about things that most kids my age don't. And i'm not talking about "dark, morbid stuff." But about interactions and how the human brain works and how people perceive you. I must sound like some nerd, but the human mind fascinates me. I want to know more about how it works. I want to learn how to manipulate people and how to read people. God, there is so much I want to know.

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So I've decided...

  This blog is going to be where i just write everything down. My life, my ideas, my frustrations. Whenever i have something i think is inspiring or interesting i'm going to put it here. I want to be heard. This is a place where i am in control. Everyone needs to be king somewhere. This is MY kingdom.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

was any of it the truth?

have you ever had that one person that you dont realize how much you need, until it starts to be too late? i think im at that point right now. and i dont know how to fix things. should i apologize when i didnt do anything? he was the one to mess up, not me. if anything that he said in the past was true, or had any meaning, then he would fix things and talk to me. if any of it, was true...

Monday, February 7, 2011

a little lie

why dont people understand how much a little lie can hurt? and that the action isnt what bothers someone, the fact that the action was hidden is. how are people so dense? like what the hell. and then they dont understand when someone doesnt want anything to do with them anymore.

i feel sorry for them. i dont think they realize just how much theyre pushing the people that care about them away. when will they wake up and figure their shit out? it makes me sad because im losing someone i care about because they lied. and they just dont get it. with one lie, all my trust in him has disappeared, and i dont know when i will be able to respect him again. i dont know when i will be able to enjoy his company again. i dont know if i will be able to forgive him. i just simply dont know.